freakers BOOO

BITCHES DON'T SURVIVE LONG, ASS
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BURN IN HELL
BURN FOREVER

siamzZ

moved away from this blog...
if you smart enuf...
you'll know where i moved to...

misery...

i am soo distressed...
i am soo depressed...
i am soo destroyed...
i am soo degraded...
i am soo disliked...
i am soo damaged...
i am soo dying...
[[ DEATH ]]

haf you guys ever finish reading about wad the hell i am going to write...i believe no...fine...want to read...READ...all writen here is truth and i think you are soo gonna agree...today was the day to see the true self of everyone...or perhaps i should haf said i could see the true self long time ago...HAH...i juz found out that i can bring people sickness...hmm...better stay away...later they die and it is my fucking fault...yeah...lembek then say lah...dun anyhow blame others...you act that you're sick..cough* cough*...wah lah...thts soo fucking easy...wanna act act better...oh yah...if you wanna tok bad abt others...make sure onli YOUR FUCKING gang noe abt it...if outsiders heard it...haiz...sad case...and better still...if you scared others will get angry wif you over some stuff..first you have to keep your attitude problem to yourself...and if you wanna ask others for smth...have a better way of asking...and if you wish to make a so-called apology...which i dun think it is...then during that whole fucking dae...dun show anyone ur bloody helluva attitude face...i hate to see that...and if you cant change...i haf no choice...and who cares i not your fren... juz the person to blame for you being sick...or perhaps your whole FUCKING gang sick...okae...other than this...some other ppl oso haf two sided ways of speakin...first they sae they would rather you tok to the other person than to tok to her...then later...the sentence change to wadda fuck...you ccb...make me be loner...erpz...how can i forget...you guys cant be loners...onli combined or perhaps stupid ppl can be loners...how can i forget this shit...its true tht others will look down on you if you stupid...or perhaps they are much more cleverer than you...haiz...better dun list anymore...later kena bad mouthing...at your back...haiz...

high IQ, low EQ...wads the use...hai....

again another lucky dae

14th May...
went out wif my buddy
haiz sianz...
suppose to be at sentosa
then someone sick
then we decide to go movie
then someone grounded
then me and buddy go buy sandals
then met up wif someone
felt soo bad for makin him run ard
then went to look for more sandals
yeah*
then at ard 5+
went home

lucky days

13th may,
-> exam : science mcq and art
-> after that went shopping
-> went queensway
-> went orchard
-> went plaza singapura
-> shop for my frens stuff
-> hate it man
-> shop til soo late
-> then backbone pain again
-> still cannot rest
-> why? why now?
-> haiz
-> but quite happy lah
-> coz i disobey my mom
-> Oops

overly stressed...

sheesh...
during history test todae
felt soo dizzy
nose block some more
felt so sick
after that go home liao
reach home took some slp
wake up liao
still so dizzy
haiz
reallie sick already lah
but does anyone care...

why...me

my daes

did smth horrible lately
felt soo guilty
dunno how many sorry
shld i actually sae
soo i wun be guilty

exams
''''''
flung all my exams
from ss to geog
ss - not enuf time
eng - i alwaes fail
chinese - nvr study
geog - paper's tough
wad can i do...
somebody tell me can

nvr came online
fer two daes
then soo xian
mug mug mug
xian sia
esp when u find idiots
ard the hse lamin
laughin like some idiots
haiz
life in sch
a loner
life at home
pissified
there isn't anywhere
thts rite fer my life
i dun belong anywhere
no one actually bothers
no one
no one
no one bothers how i feel
sheesh*
felt soo...
left out
misery
cried at home...but to find
no one actually cares
how is tis possible
sheesh
no one cares then fine lo
loner = saddist
wads more
tis world is unfair
unfair unfair
i haf problems
no one noes
no one
no
one...
life isnt fer me
life sux...
sux
sux
sux
sux
sux
sux
sux
sux

sheesh*
juz felt like emphasizin

SuNdAeS...

went church in the morn
then went shoppin at funan
hmmm...saw tis malay guy tht look like
fmtk fytfo...
whaha...
nvm
then went to shop shop then go home
with my cousin...
me parents went to grandma hse
reach home use com abit
chat chat wif someone fmtk
then after tht go offline
then called sfmtk
whahhaa
then chat chat
soo long
but its okay
me happy mah
>,<
heeheex
after tht had my dinner
maggie mee
sheesh
then watch runaway bride and ice age
heehee
then now
signin off....weee!!!

shoppin

went shoppin wif me family todae
bought 3 bottles of acrylic paint
$30+
ex sia
then after tht
bought two keychains fer $15
but discount $10
then bought a new wallet
abt onli $10
but me like the color nia
heeheez

WaDs A|| ThEsE...

yesterdae *
~~~~~~~~~ *
whaha *
jialin's special dae *
unforgettable sia *
whaha *
called tis paticular person *
one reason *
and thts becoz of jialin *
i was the "mastermind" *
for thinking of tis plan *
i twist the actual way thou *
Oops* *
heehee *
*
last night *
~~~~~~~~~~ *
i was muggin fer my ss exam *
didnt go online fer juz one day *
hmmm... *
cant realli concentrate thou *
*
today *
~~~~~ *
morning *
------- *
rushing to catch bus 93 *
the onli smss gal aboard *
then went to continue muggin *
didnt really do my a.maths *
it is soo chim *
quite sad thou *
coz didnt receive any msg *
but still had to continue to mug *
then after assembly *
finally receive msg *
i was overjoyed *
and i dunno why *
this is soo confusing *
nvm *
then after exam liao *
went fer a.maths lesson *
then go home *
had been usin com from dunno when *
perhaps its juz fer one purpose *
however, *
the result turn out to be misery *
or perhaps, we are not fated *
nvm *
shldnt take tis seriously *
but some ppl i noe told me *
to cherish it *
some told me tht it shld be taken *
lightly *
*
i dunno *
i dunno *
i dunno *
this is soo confusing *
cant take it anymore *
i am soo juz gonna heckk *
and take a step at a time *
shall see wad happens *
*
the night is gone and dawn broke *
finally... *
**************************************

npdp 2005...

time sure passes really quickly..
after soO much trg...
finally it's come to the real thing
the actual parade..
-------------------------------------
we reached there at abt 12+ going 1pm
then we went to blk 26
left our bags there and rested
air condition..
woO...nice
then the CIs gt food..
yumzZ..
i didnt had lunch
then we kana some lollipops
and a badge
thts from the CIs
-------------------------------------
pre parade...
sweats* soO h0t
march to the parade sq
then did some drills there
gt do wrong three times
coz head went blank larh
haha
-------------------------------------
my leg yesterdae still pain
my back oso
dunno why now soO many probs
haiz
marching time
limpin*
pain sia
-------------------------------------
break time...
we had water and i drank 1 1/3 bottle
haha
then the break soo fast
haiz form back time
-------------------------------------
back to the room..
march back to blk 26
sheesh*
its soo far away
haha
when reach there
wah air con on
soO cold after awhile
then we had bread
rested there, chatted, and polish boots
tiring*
then soOn we were told to change
we change in the room
while guys change in toilet
haha
-------------------------------------
actual parade..
we went to the wrong place
then had to walk one big round
haiz*
then before parade
at the FUP...
( form up point )
asked if i can march
of coz can lo
although muz tolerate the pain
haha
then march out
audience cheer*
haha
-------------------------------------
back to blk 26
we went back and rested
received a keychain from CIs
yeah*
nice one man
then rested again and had to change
after tht we had to chaos*
haha
everybody like soo sad
but who cares
haha
time passes quickly
and obviously
everyone will miss everyone
haha
but sure there will be a time
when we all will meet again
haha
-------------------------------------

несчастный...

чувствование себя действительно плохо теперь. я был бы не уверен, травмировал ли я его. он, кажется, грустный или что, но я только не знаю. он звучал грустным, все же, что он говорит, что он - не. как?. я действительно очень волнуюсь. это - мой первый раз, когда и я ненавижу чувство причинения вреда других. это заставило меня плохо себя чувствовать, и я действительно испытывал желание сломаться теперь. никто не понимает, как я чувствовал. никто. мои друзья действительно не понимают, поскольку они не имеют опытным, я думаю. мои родители будут только ворчать на меня для того, чтобы не концентрироваться на моих занятиях(изучениях), вместо этого пошел, смотря вокруг для парней. никто не понимает. я не могу сказать никого. это плохо себя чувствует, когда я должен держать все ко мне непосредственно. я не чувствую себя хорошо. я только хочу сломаться теперь. никогда чувствовавший этот путь. это так не типично меня. я - такая задница. проклятый.

misery..or happiness...

sheesh-
not a good day
fer me
half day todae
but had to stay fer np
haiz
after tt
went to meet wif a lamer
diao
so shock to see him there
haiz
now its ovr
nth to worry
i oso had to buy mac fer
three ppl
all becoz of him larh
sheesh-
still haven gt me a present
haizZ
nvm i wait
WAITIN HOR
then went ovr to big bully's hse
haha
6+ then go home
haiz
miserable
i juz "broke" wif him
dunno if he is hurt
u noe
like the way he reply
makes you feel soo
guilty
dun wish to hurt him one
but its juz not the rite time
haiz
now he soo "dead"
haiz
izzit my fault
oh my
juz hates my life
dun wish to feel tis way
then again
someone came back liaoz
yeahzZ
sort of happy
dunno why
but on the other hand
haiz
nvm no one understandz

nowadaezZ

last mon:
pon skl fer 1st time
nvr b4 can
woah...
overslept
haha

last fri:
trg fer npdp
last third trg
sheesh...
we ran in the rain lorh
liaos
late some more
kao*
then...
timer nvr come
how bad can tt be
me be timer
volunteer one larh
diaozZ*
give timing
keep givin wrongly
wads me prob man
then i ask anth guy to be timer
damn pissed

last sat:
wad can i sae
all CIs arrive
woah*
shiet lorh
cannot slp lorh
haha
jking
then wah...
two full parade can
faint*
not me larh
haha
me not soo lembek
alot cannot tahan sia
scary*
then parade fini
wad happen after tt
dun wanna sae
coz it sux...

present life now:
sheesh-
damn sian-
kana suai or wad
kao*
why me...
diao lorh
cannot believe
shld not happen one wad
aiya...i think
shld juz break larh..
i mean not realli break larh
but juz be fwenz
u noe wad i mean rite
haha
it is such a miserable thing
dun feel like hurtin tt person
but i realli felt nth
nth at all
haizZ..
if hurt tt person ,
i m realli sorry...
but i haf not told tt person yet
if tt person online
then sae lorh
quite sad hor...
but too bad larh
soo tall and more than 3 yrs older
how to accept...
maybe..
nxt time...
or nvr....
haizZ...

past and present.

DRY SHOOT
me dry shoot...
results is oout
i got marksman
yeahz...
soo happy...
81/90
woah...
tis CI was there
harhar
some one we knew
dun sae who

NPDP TRG
trg getting tougher
the latest one on fri
ended at 7++
reach home at 8++
wow
my dinner
wondering
we stayed till 8
then eat dinner
then slp
nxt dae
wake up
6++
then go parade again
then see same old ppl
weird rite...
anyway...
woke up at 6am
the nxt dae
supposed to meet
felicia, cc and jialin
then go soo early
wait at the bus stop
from 6.45 to 7.15
haish
half an hour
soo koko
then nvm
they came like freakin late
boiling liao
then saw sharms in the bus
wanted to take but too late
then took the nxt bus
go by myself
sheesh
then after tt
go with sharms to gmss
most of the nygh ppl reach liao
then we blahblahblah
after tt
we went there late
then CI gotta open the door again
haish
farnie dae
then did marching
liaos parade time kana suan by some ppl
sheesh
nvr scold ppl then wanna suan
haish
after the whole trg
we went sentosa
cycle 2 hours
then go playplay...
very fun
went home at 9 +
by the way...
we got our 3rd class drill badge
yeahz*

dry shoot...ME

harharhar
dry shoot todae...
soo excited
mornin gt a.maths
diaos
the trainee sae i do
two pieces of work
same one some more
she anyhow sae i nvr do
of coz
soo guai
go do rite
liaoz
then after tt
e.maths..
haish
MATHS kill me
recess liao...
me "zo bo"
slack
then geog
fell aslp
sheesh
aiya...
skip all the way
to dry shoot prac
wah b4 tt
lsb call us to carry pegs
50 i think
liao soo heavy can
then aiya...
SCC and LSB
guys can
no strength muz gals
carry
diaoz
then after tt go makan
liaos
zhao...
go there
shoot...
heng onli did 1 wrong
run two rds
but LSB sae run 4 rds
he owes me
then shoot shoot again...
quite fun but pain
hand pain...
now home
cut me finger
ouch*
bleed
made a pic out of it
nice
show u someday...
hurhurhur...

todayzZ

hmmm...
last day of my march hols...
goin back to suffer
first day gt eng test
how miserable
stress
haf no idea on my a.maths
art
soo difficult
i m nth
but a sarcastic fool
haiz
study
studious
this is all bullshit
nvr judge a person by its look
tts really true
haiz
diedie
howhow
i shall perish
unable to handle
damn
anyway
hmm
this sounded serious
yeahz
no parade tis fri
hmmm
think i will be away from the com
again
lets meet till the nxt hols
smile alwaes
cheez....
fade away.....

wad a sarcastic title...

hahz...
nice to start off with a laugh
haiz...
todae..
hmm...
yupsyups
b4 the whole parade
we went PA ourselves...
sharms forgot to bring baton
argh...
haf to run up help her get
soo nice rite???
harhar
then after tt
return np rm key liaos
ask tcher to put my progress report
on my tchers table
harhar
soo ma lu
she saw all my results
haiz
then after tt
we drag our shoes to PA
harhar
dun wanna go wif barker
then reach there change into half u
then march out tt time
harhar
kana whole unit "scolded"
for some arm coordination
haiya dunno wad larh
me...
ic and timer...
wah lao...
parade time ...
wow....
got a so-called new ci
to our unit
nvr seen b4
quite nice but not suai..
harhar
left marker!!!!
wadda hell
heng*...
mad dog not ard
or i die liao
wadda hell lorh
scold me some stuff
abt my hentak kaki
tt i cannot hear
wanna scold scold louder larh
haiz...
anyway...
oh yarh...
as i was saying
LEFT MARKER!!!
haiz...
soo hard to do
but harhar
veri impt role sia
heehee
dun mind being stress...
but worst sia
me soo cuckoo...
suddenly mind block
then dunno wad is right
harhar
then kana scolded for not
lifting the right leg
harhar
during break time...
stupid mad dog
force me to eat cake
ARGH
really mad abt it lorh
esp when some dumbo
keep laughin at u
wadda hell
harhar
revenge time...
kept pinchin tt dumbo
harhar
who ask her
nvm
she got it fer standing
beside smelly poopoo
harhar
smelly bear...
haiz
skl reopenin sure die larh
nvm
haiz...............

beach

woke up at 7++
i think
gotta go changi beach sia
haiz
tirin
go there
age gap
haiz
bored to death
then on swing tt time
this girl same age
ask me this all ur
siblings arh
then i nvr hear
properly
anyhow ans yes
wadda
then i change to
er no kinda relatives
haiz
i blurr
admit
nvm
after tt
7++ go home
haiz
soo chatchat
heehee
tts the whole
borin life todae
oh yah
saw one whole bunch of
np ppl
but not from mua area
gt bedok one
heehee

hmmm...sneaky...

hahaz...
todae go skl to get my results back...
my a.maths result...
i was failed...
but supposedly pass...
went to look fer mr soh...
ask him abt my results and how...
then he sae wait fer molie...
okay lorh...
wait...
wait...
wait...
FINALLY...
she appeared
ask fer my results...
then yeah i pass
but not really nice sia
then after tt
look fer mr soh again
then he lame sae wanna change remarks not...
then of coz...
i lame back...
haha
after that...
cc backbone check up soo long
then finally she appear
then we watch movie
nth much to watch but hitch
wadda...
nvm
tts e onli show available
at tt time
wah laos
used up soo much money liaos...
i m broke
but no choice...

^ u won't understand ^

...................
trg today,
was quite tiring
unlucky
kana scoldin
becoz i was the ic
not my fault lor
is my fwen keep tokin
scold me fer wad
wah lao can
and oso tis is my 2nd time
everytime sabo me
after that oso sabo me
ask me to ask fer permission
to fall in
wadda
purposely one lorh
everytime bully me
i not in gd terms wif tt chap lorh
sabo me oso no use rite
wah lao
tts why love ur enemies
hate ur friends
tts totally true
or only on some situation
after tt
durin the supposedly
real parade
was the left marker
me soo stupid
how to be left marker
haiz
was soo stressed
coz hard to march sia
my estimation oso sux
ask me to march
to the cross section
totally cannot make it
i was totally out of point
then some more todae
dunno is wanna rain or not
soo hot
my shoe gt hot air rising
hahaz
some more
some ppl [ from my skl ]
complain i march too fast
u think easy izzit
u try larh
u'r nvr pass msg too fast
how i know
[ retarded ][ pizzed ]
this ppl juz freak me out
stress everything on me
then they relac
wadda
they think its fun but i dun think so
u might find it fun
but think abt others
others might be suffering like SHIT
fer food
bread and water
wad else
[hmm][shld not complain]
but im anti bread
haf been eatin bread fer 6 yrs
soo tired of it
and oso tired from all the marching
nobody wanna eat lorh
forcin only coz ppl to puke
anyway
quite fun thou
[only some parts]
...................

NPDP trg

yeahz...
go for npdp trg with my fwenz...
chih ching, felicia, sharmila,
jialin, rong hui and rong xian
although there is 7 only but it's ok
and hence i shall be the extra one larh...
nvm
anyway, at first,
the impression of the CIs are...
fierce...
scary...
wadda...
we were like so damn freak out...
and we wanted to go home...
but now it's better...
some more our unit got...
the most condemn person...
and a han zi [ sweet potato in hokkien ]
hahas...
anyway...
wad we had is onli bread and water...
liaoz..
soo tired still needa eat...
diaoz* can
thou the trg quite tirin...
but it's better than skool's parade
hahaz
[ this shld be posted earlier on ]
[ hahaz ]

soo hyper...

harlow to all my friends...
me...soo happy...i think
actually it was suppose to be yesterday...
anyway...i am finally bloggin
haiz...it's juz soo hard tryin to keep your own happiness sometimes...
i juz wanna share it but...
not all friends can be trusted you see...
haiz...
he soo carin one yet i dunno...haiz
but juz found out...
he's not tt fierce...
he juz knows how to comfort ppl...
haiz...
i juz can't stand keeping this matter to me...
if onli i could sae it...
haiz...misery...

A brand new day...

yeahs...
got into npdp ...
the trg there quite tough thou...
[ anyway, this is suppose to be posted long time ago ]
march here and there...
fun...
kana 2 male cis....
haiz...
dunno wad to sae...
anyway...
after addin some ppl...
i was actually condemned....
wadda hell lorh...
anyway...
during skool hours...
wah...kana irritated and pizz sia
me ask u ...
how wld u feel if somebody in ur skool
actually copies EVERY SINGLE action u do???
veri irritatin rite?
even if u siam her til very obvious...
she still dun get it...
wadda hell...
soo freakin pissed off lorh...
haiz...
some ppl juz can't be lonerized...
pity for her...
how the hell is she gonna survived
when being left alone...
one word...
DIE...
wah laoz...